When I was in middle school and high school, theater was my life. I’m pretty sure if you looked up the term “theater rat” during those years, you would have seen my face smiling back.
I was very close to going to school for musical theater, but towards the end of high school I got sucked into the film and television world and opted to go to school for the business of media. I figured I could always be in shows whether or not I got a degree in theater.
But as I went through school, I found that there was no time to audition, let alone put in the time and energy it takes to be in a full blown theatrical production. I graduated in 2012 with not one show added to my resume.
Since graduating college, I’ve learned a lot about myself. The first is that I never realized how truly extroverted I am. While I was in school there was a constant flow of student films to be in, projects to finish, and like-minded creative peers to spend time with. Now that we’ve all started our adult lives and don’t have the structure that university brings, I’ve found it difficult to find outlets for my extroverted, creative, performing, self. I’ve also discovered that trying to jump back into something I’ve been away from for a long time is really scary.
But it’s worth it.
I recently auditioned to sing in the upcoming world premiere of The Hunchback of Notre Dame musical at the La Jolla Playhouse. I went back and forth for days about whether or not to audition. “You haven’t sung on stage in years.” “You probably suck now.” “They’re all going to be better than you.” These tracks played over and over in my head.
But I auditioned anyway. And to my surprise, I got in! I will be singing in the show this October and I couldn’t be more excited. I am beyond thrilled to dive back into this world that I love so very much.
To wrap this up, I just want to say that if you’re like me — struggling to figure out your place in a world outside of school — just try stuff. I don’t mean for this sound preachy or condescending, but honestly, just try anything and everything that comes your way. It’s okay to be scared and self conscious. I think that’s just life in general. But we will never find our place in this new state in life if we just wait for opportunities to find us. We’ve got to get out there and find that place for ourselves.